one down

one week down and i'm in love with living on my own. we cook meals together, he builds a fire when its cold, i pack his lunch for the days on the island and we continue working on the film. the families are visiting this coming week, i welcome the visitors but i cant wait for it to be us again, being all grown up like.

Horrah!

putzing around the mall and target with my mumma today, gathering last minute needs and wants for this summer, i realized, i'm an adult. mostly. trying on pants and collecting fun shirts and skirts in my cart, my debit card felt heavier in my bag. my goal to save money for those extra things i want to splurge on or the groceries and utilities bills i'll be paying this summer, semi flew out the fitting room door. i did manage to get everything on my NEED list and only a few things from the WANT. more and more, however, i'm realizing i'm growing up, much to my distaste. yet, as i walked around in bewilderment of my changed life of 20, i revised my goals list. the goal to save money will remain unchanged, because lets face it, we all wish we had a little more cash. the goal to dress up and embrace my 20s is slowly taking hold in my life, but it may temporarily be due to the fact that i have much more time to get dressed in the morning and my sister's closet to share. the goal to find a job, film a documentary and live with A is less than 4 days away and looming over me as i get myself prepared. the goal to improve my photography has returned to its place in the forefront of my life and right beside it is the goal to write creatively and compose a novel.

 so this summer, with goals of preparing amazing dinners, catching more fish than A, completing my quilt, continuing as photog editor of the university paper and always searching for the best internship all sprinkled on top, just to make life more interesting, my goal list is set.

things unplanned

lazy days have become far too regular. maybe at some point this summer, i can start accomplishing things. too often i find my thoughts drifting and my to-do lists edited. even with my date book and my handy book of lists and ideas, this morning i showered, made my bed, folded laundry and painted my nails. truly none of those things were planned, or necessary, although the shower probably was. is it the summer heat thats got me bass ackwards or the looming move ahead of me? the days fly by and i'm rolling with the punches, trying to stay cool, calm and collected. perhaps once plans are finalized and the packing begins it'll stop feeling surreal and i'll start to get a move on. for the next few days though, the ideas of working, sleep and driving down winding old roads seem to be calling my name. the occasional swim and maybe an evening by a bonfire to close out my all too quick summer vacation. it's not over, i know, but a certain end is coming to my time in ct. next year, an apartment in dc? exciting times to be making plans and growning up, if only i can focus on the plans before me and get in contact with A, maybe then my mind will settle down and i can make difinitive moves out of this summer haze.

20th year

my 20th year... at an end, full of changes, highs and lows, tears and smiles, new friends and old, the chronicle, some photography and love. the next few weeks alone promise more challenges and surprises; living with A in maine, working and filming a documentary. in the fall, dedicating my life to the chronicle as photography editor, both in print and online, furthering my education in these last two years and applying for internships. time has flown by taking with it dozens of friends and memories, some i wished to hold on to and others i gladly let go. i welcome the day when my face is carved with wrinkles showing the happiness, sadness and wisdom of my life. until then, i welcome the start of my 21st year with a little wish but mostly determination to make it better than the last!